What my near death experience taught me about dying empty.
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Last week I shared my testimony on my social media platforms of my close encounter with death. For those of you not following me on Instagram and Facebook, let me share the story with you:
I was studying late one night in my room with the air conditioning unit on and a candle burning. I started to feel extremely drowsy so decided to rest on my bed. All I can remember after that is not being able to breathe, so I jumped out of my bed and pulled the door open, running straight to the bathroom, only to see 1/2 of my face (the side I slept on) completely swollen. I was coughing for what felt like 30 minutes. My nose was stuffed. My chest was congested. I drank so many bottles of water, but to no avail, I still couldn’t breathe properly. That is when I realized I almost died from asphyxiation. Due to lack of oxygen in the room, the burning of the candle couldn’t fully oxidize; so as a result it formed dangerous carbon monoxide. People quite often die due to carbon monoxide poisoning after lighting candles in a room with air-conditioning on and all windows closed. As you may already know, carbon monoxide is very dangerous, and can kill a person in less than an hour.
Having experienced now my 3rd near death experience (the first two were in Philly; talked about it here), I have never felt so much pressure to constantly work at fulfilling my purpose in life. If I die today, the only thing I leave is a burden, haha. My family will be burdened by both my death and my debt.
I have no legacy or fortune to leave behind. That’s why I know I cannot die! God wants me to die in emptiness.
For the past few weeks, I’ve been listening to so many of Dr. Myles Munroe’s sermons on YouTube. He often spoke about legacy, business, and striving to do more in life. I believe the burden Dr. Munroe held to die empty of his potential gave his family and loved ones peace about his unfortunate death. And it has now become a burden of mine as well. I don’t want to die with potential. I don’t want people saying “she was so young and destined to do great things.” Rather, I want people to say that she accomplished so much and gave so much to people.
It’s part of the reason why I’ve had so much boldness to create the #FutureSelfChallenge and start my own business. The burden to die free of potential is weighing too heavy on me. And I pray that this blog post burdens you to want to do the same. When you get a chance, listen to Dr. Myles Munroe’s sermons (this is one of my favorites) and start working on dying empty! Because the truth is, we don’t know when our last day on earth is. So we must give our all every day, and free ourselves from grudges and bitterness!
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