That ugly moment when the Holy Spirit shows you that you’re not allowing Him to produce His fruit in you.
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WHAT I’M WEARING:
I vividly recall the time I went to go visit a gentleman who was pursuing me a couple of years ago. We arranged to meet up, as he was in town from another state. I told him I only had a few minutes to spare as I was feeling sick, and also wanted to get home to do some work. I waited for 30 minutes for the gentleman to meet me outside by my car. The delay made me furious and to add insult to the injury, he thought my attitude was laughable. So I drove off on him… well, at least that’s the edited version of the story.
Of course, I felt terrible for disrespecting him in that manner. This was yet another one of my “anger/rage” episodes, and to be frank, I just didn’t like his arrogance and wanted to prove a point that: I wasn’t one of his “little girlfriends.” If you’re wondering, nothing transpired between me and the man (somewhere between ‘eww, no’ and his questionable relationship with a woman we both knew led me to move on with my life). But a few days ago, I was reminded by my father of this ‘driving off’ incident and my serious impatience. The incident reminder recently had me in despair and dealing terribly with myself.
In church, we’ve been discussing the Fruit of the Spirit vs. the Fruit of the Flesh for several weeks. But it didn’t dawn on me until a few minutes ago how often I manifest the fruit of the flesh in comparison to the fruit of the spirit. I had to ask myself a very uncomfortable question, “Have you ever even produced the fruit of the Spirit, Christina?” Well, I didn’t like the answer to my question. And I now realize how desperately important it is for me to start starving my flesh and feeding my spirit. Because based on what categorized my life, I certainly manifested the fruit of the flesh more often than the fruit of the Spirit.
Below is a chart of the fruit of the Spirit with its respective opposites: the fruit of the flesh:
To give you the exact Bible verses, ” The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21 and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.” (Galatians 5: 19-23 NIV).
The truth is, I literally find it difficult to produce EVERY single fruit of the Spirit. There isn’t one easier for me to produce than the other. In actual fact, it is termed the fruit of the Spirit and not the fruits of the Spirit because when one is produced in you, all are produced in you. I’ve concluded that when I hate people, when I’m in despair, when I’m anxious, impatient, rude, evil, unreliable, abrasive and undisciplined, I am manifesting the strength of my flesh, and the weakness of my spirit. It’s also a clear indication of how little I feed my spirit and how much I feed my flesh.
The good news is that Jesus has given us the power to fight our flesh and the means to grow our spirit. This power comes from the Spirit of Jesus, which is the Holy Spirit. When we operate by the Spirit of Jesus, we give Him full control to help us manifest the fruit of His Spirit. All that we need to thrive and to grow is in The Gospel. So in this season, I am working diligently to start producing the fruit of the Spirit by feeding my spirit with the Word of God. And I pray that everyone reading this will do the same!
Have a blessed Tuesday.