Testimony Tuesday: Breakdown Before Breakthrough

The struggle is always the greatest right before the breakthrough.

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My life was very different three years ago.

Three years ago I experienced the worst kind of heart break. I felt like a failure and I didn’t think I carried anything besides beauty. (Yeah I always thought I was popping, forget what you heard. lol) Besides physical beauty, I felt inadequate. It’s a weird place to be in life, when you don’t feel loved  by man or by God. At that time, I was dealing with the worst case of withdrawal/depression as a result of a bad break up. But I also felt undeserving of God’s grace and His mercy. I felt like I disappointed Him in the worst way and there wasn’t any forgiveness of sins.

I decided to give my life to Christ and live for Him alone. I thought that would wipe away all of my problems and bring me pure happiness. Instead, the problems grew far worse. I endured many seasons of disappointment after disappointment, particularly in the men department. As a lover of love, I always found my worth and happiness in men. I looked to men for joy, never understanding that joy came from the Lord. So even while I “lived for God” I still had little boyfriends what seemed like every season. And all of these little boyfriends, I thought at least, were in the body of Christ so they had to be approved by God, right?


Soon thereafter, I found myself breaking down and deteriorating. Bitterness mixed with heart break is indeed a recipe for destruction. However, I refused to lose hope in Jesus. I didn’t give up on my profession of faith in Him; and I knew that some way, somehow a testimony would come after all that I was experiencing. If you’re wondering how I was so sure, I can say without hesitation that it was a combination of two things: the testimonies of those in the Scriptures and my own personal testimonies. Three years of breakdown later, I am preparing to marry the man that I prayed for. This is an example of Breakdown right before breakthrough.

It’s really important to review the God of your past when dealing with difficult times. It’s important to remember the ways He came through for you when there seemed to be no way. And upon remembering those moments, you can be encouraged in knowing that you serve a God who is the same yesterday, today and forevermore. What He did for you 5 years ago, and how He came through for you should encourage you that He can do it again and again. There really is new mercies available to you every single morning.

When I think about the life of Joseph in the Scriptures, I am amazed. A man who was envied by his own flesh and blood, sold into slavery, placed in jail and yet still came out victorious. (Read Genesis for his story) When I think about the life of Job- a man who had all the riches in the East, a blessed family and a great relationship with God I am also amazed. God allowed for the devil to take everything away from him overnight, leaving him with nothing but himself. Job lost every family member, all of his riches, and even almost his sanity.  But in the end, God gave restored all of his fortunes and gave him twice as much as what he once owned. (Read Job for his story)

What does all of this mean to you? It means that right before your breakthrough, you typically experience intense breakdown. But that isn’t the time to get discouraged and give up. It is the time to encourage yourself with the Word of God and remember all that God has done for you in the past. So if you’re currently experiencing breakdown, just know that your breakthrough is around the corner.






  1. Ohenewa
    March 20, 2018 / 4:31 pm

    Thank you so much for this. I went through something very similar… I’ve healed and I’m patiently waiting for that lucky man to come so we make each other….. and sometimes it gets frustrating! So frustrating! But your testimony has boosted my faith. If God has done it before, nothing stops Him from from doing it again! You are blessed! Thank you!

    • justmissedtherunway
      March 21, 2018 / 9:35 am

      While in waiting, be sure to build your relationship with God. Trust me, you’ll need to be centered and secured in Christ when God brings you your husband. God bless you love!

  2. Vena
    March 21, 2018 / 9:27 am

    Replace life partner with a job that matches my passion and purpose- and this is my exact testimony today. After a year of waiting and disappointment, I got a position yesterday that just blew my mind! Like you, The story of Job and reflecting on testimonies of God’s faithfulness to people in the Bible as well as in my life in time past- was what helped me through the journey. You went Live one day talking about God will not share His glory, I hung to that declaration like air- and now I can’t even chalk up my blessing to any networking or any or personal action- Just unmerited blessing! He who hath begun a good work will perfect it!

    • justmissedtherunway
      March 21, 2018 / 9:33 am

      Vena, your testimony blessed me more than you know! God bless you for sharing, and thank you for your support! We give God the glory for your new gig!

  3. Ryan
    April 16, 2018 / 3:13 pm

    Lady you look sexy af in this jumpsuit and heels!! You look really glamorous and classy. You look stunning. 😉 x x x

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