The struggle is always the greatest right before the breakthrough.
WHAT I’M WEARING:
My life was very different three years ago.
Three years ago I experienced the worst kind of heart break. I felt like a failure and I didn’t think I carried anything besides beauty. (Yeah I always thought I was popping, forget what you heard. lol) Besides physical beauty, I felt inadequate. It’s a weird place to be in life, when you don’t feel loved by man or by God. At that time, I was dealing with the worst case of withdrawal/depression as a result of a bad break up. But I also felt undeserving of God’s grace and His mercy. I felt like I disappointed Him in the worst way and there wasn’t any forgiveness of sins.
I decided to give my life to Christ and live for Him alone. I thought that would wipe away all of my problems and bring me pure happiness. Instead, the problems grew far worse. I endured many seasons of disappointment after disappointment, particularly in the men department. As a lover of love, I always found my worth and happiness in men. I looked to men for joy, never understanding that joy came from the Lord. So even while I “lived for God” I still had little boyfriends what seemed like every season. And all of these little boyfriends, I thought at least, were in the body of Christ so they had to be approved by God, right?
Soon thereafter, I found myself breaking down and deteriorating. Bitterness mixed with heart break is indeed a recipe for destruction. However, I refused to lose hope in Jesus. I didn’t give up on my profession of faith in Him; and I knew that some way, somehow a testimony would come after all that I was experiencing. If you’re wondering how I was so sure, I can say without hesitation that it was a combination of two things: the testimonies of those in the Scriptures and my own personal testimonies. Three years of breakdown later, I am preparing to marry the man that I prayed for. This is an example of Breakdown right before breakthrough.
It’s really important to review the God of your past when dealing with difficult times. It’s important to remember the ways He came through for you when there seemed to be no way. And upon remembering those moments, you can be encouraged in knowing that you serve a God who is the same yesterday, today and forevermore. What He did for you 5 years ago, and how He came through for you should encourage you that He can do it again and again. There really is new mercies available to you every single morning.
When I think about the life of Joseph in the Scriptures, I am amazed. A man who was envied by his own flesh and blood, sold into slavery, placed in jail and yet still came out victorious. (Read Genesis for his story) When I think about the life of Job- a man who had all the riches in the East, a blessed family and a great relationship with God I am also amazed. God allowed for the devil to take everything away from him overnight, leaving him with nothing but himself. Job lost every family member, all of his riches, and even almost his sanity. But in the end, God gave restored all of his fortunes and gave him twice as much as what he once owned. (Read Job for his story)
What does all of this mean to you? It means that right before your breakthrough, you typically experience intense breakdown. But that isn’t the time to get discouraged and give up. It is the time to encourage yourself with the Word of God and remember all that God has done for you in the past. So if you’re currently experiencing breakdown, just know that your breakthrough is around the corner.