Getting transparent about the mistake I made last year and how I’m going to change that this year.
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When I think deeply about the fact that some collective 30,000 people have subscribed to my voice on the World Wide Web, it makes me ask the Lord, “Who am I that You have called me and are mindful of me?”
It has not always been this way but I am truly grateful for the command and opportunity to disciple others in a capacity that not many people will have… That my evangelistic efforts are made easy with inventions of the internet, and more specifically, social media; and that I get an opportunity to win for Christ and disciple tens of thousands of people.
I’ve spoken in depth in the past about my hearing from the Lord concerning blogging, and how God has positioned me to do this for His glory. It’s His Word that makes me continue to do so in such capacities because without His confirmation- trust me I would have ended this journey in 2016.
But if I’m to be transparent with you, somewhere over the years I really missed the mark on this calling. Influencing and content creating started becoming mainly about carnal things- how much money I can make, how many followers I can acquire, and how many outfits I could put together. And then somewhere in the middle of blogging, I started mentoring women on achieving blogging success and taking their brand to the level needed to start generating money.
The work I was doing wasn’t really convicting because the money I was making wasn’t as a result of manipulation as some are in the habit of doing. I wasn’t stealing. I wasn’t peddling the gospel for profit. I wasn’t misleading anyone. I was making money by simply sharing knowledge with people. But while making the money, I lost sense of purpose and joy. And that leads me to today’s very very short blog post ( because sis Christina is stretching herself thin in responsibilities so no time will be wasted here.)
The mandate is to make disciples of Jesus Christ.
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” – Matthew 28: 19-20
Last year, I found myself doing a lot of really lucrative entrepreneurial things that consumed my time. My husband returned to school and I was believing God ( & myself if I’m honest) for financial provision so I consumed myself with businesses.
But truth is it cost me, spiritually and physically.
I spent more time serving people and things that didn’t profit me much and as a result missed out on opportunities to win more souls for Jesus. The other day in church the pastor asked us how many souls we won in 2020 for Jesus. I couldn’t believe my answer was 3. THREE. 366 days of millions of people searching for answers and I only won over THREE people.
Well this year’s focus is much more different. If I think about what I need to do to make more disciples and win more souls in 2021, I may not do it. So no to thinking, but yes to relying on the Holy Spirit to lead me, give me strategy and glorify Himself in my life and through my life in the process.
If I keep this in the forefront of my mind the rest of what I desire for my household will follow. The Word of God makes me confident of this.
Seek ye FIRST the kingdom of God and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33
You may be wondering why I’ve written this post. Well, for starters I believe public repentance was needed; but perhaps you’ve been making the same mistakes. My testimonies on my blog have always served the purpose of convicting and bringing about understanding and/or change so it is my prayer this blog post has done just that for many of you!
Keep me lifted in prayer (to Almighty God. If you don’t serve Him don’t pray for me) as I do the same for you.