Testimony Tuesday: The Message Hidden in the Mess

That time the nastiest person also dubbed as a messenger of God.

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So I’m in therapy…

Whew…That took so much for me to write for so many reasons. But I’m glad to finally get that out of the way.

One of my favorite people of late, Oswald Chambers once said,

“There is no such thing as a private life, or a place to hide in this world, for a man or woman who is intimately aware of and shares in the sufferings of Jesus Christ. God divides the private life of His saints and makes it a highway for the world on one hand and for Himself on the other. No human being can stand that unless he is identified with Jesus Christ. We are not sanctified for ourselves.”

So this is my expression of a life lived for Jesus. I am in therapy because I want to be able to experience the fullness of life Christ died for me to experience. I need to be totally healed and equipped for myself, for my family, and for the people God is bringing my way to impact and counsel. So I’m getting counseling from a Holy Ghost filled Christian licensed therapist… and it’s going well if I do say so, myself.

In one of our sessions, my therapist suggested I stay on top of all of my health visits, to include a primary care provider. Well I don’t have a PCP because I’ve been pregnant for the last 2-3 years and have primarily been getting treatment from OBGYNs. So I found a PCP and decided to get a routine checkup. During my appointment, we briefly discussed some of the things my therapist encouraged me to do to help me get better organized and stay on top of my mental and physical health.

This PCP responded, without giving too much information, by completely dismissing the advice of my therapist and suggesting I do something else. Her statements  implied that I was a lazy and incompetent, and she really offended me. To add insult to the injury, she spoke with a condescending tone, and loud enough for the entire office to hear our discussion. She implied I held ulterior motives for my visit to her office and directly questioned many of the personal decisions I made about my life and my health.

I was upset, to say the least. But as I drove home the Lord told me to take her advice and “try again” to do the thing I had stopped doing.  It was then I realized that this extremely rude and condescending (maybe even biased) medical provider gave me a message from God. A message that, if I wasn’t discerning, and if I allowed the offense to operate in me long enough, would have completely missed.

You may be thinking right now, how can God use such a nasty person. To which I answer, because He is God and that’s simply what He does.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 NIV

God isn’t like humans. He doesn’t use people because of what they have, how they treat Him, what they give Him or because of who they are. He shows us over and over again that He does what He does to fulfill His purpose, not ours. And most times we judge based on outward appearance and/or qualities and characteristics. But God looks at the heart of a person.

But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7

This PCP I deemed to be rude and condescending was used by God to help me try my hand again at something I had previously given up on. And if I didn’t ask God to show me what He was saying, I would have missed it.

How many times have we dismissed a message, advice, warning, or a suggestion because of the vessel sharing it? How many times have we disqualified people from being used by God because they weren’t packaged the way we expected them to be packaged? How many times have we allowed offense to make us disregard the advice of wise people? How many times have we disregarded someone’s wisdom because of their financial status?

So I said, “wisdom is better than strength.” But the poor man’s wisdom is despised, and his words are no longer heeded. Ecclesiastes 9:16 

As believers, we have to separate our biases of messengers from their message. If God can use a donkey to reprimand a prophet of God ( Numbers 22); if God can use a slave girl to help a military commander be healed of leprosy (2 Kings 5); if God can use an unbelieving king to favor Nehemiah and give him what he needed to rebuild the wall in Jerusalem (Nehemiah 2), then surely God can use someone you don’t like to give you a message and bless you.

As an unbeliever, be open to the message of those you think you don’t like. I know Christians, in particular, have a poor reputation of being judgmental and dismissive. I know some of us have offended you and made you uninterested in the Jesus we so often speak about. But if you can be open to the message, while disregarding the messenger you just may get the answers to the questions you’ve been asking!

God does not operate the way you think He should operate. He operates as He wills. We won’t always understand how or why He does what He does, but we can always depend on Him to do what is in our best interest!

God bless you for reading!





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